Saturday, December 6, 2008

Can I Share?

I started to begin another blog account. Instead I am just going to share with you what I am learning from time to time. Really as a way to "write" down on paper what I am learning to help me to remember. To help me solidify what I am learning, what He is teaching to me.

I have shared this with some friends here lately, but as I sit here and type I am still learning more. I use to worry about raising 3 boys. I really didn't grow up in a Christian home. I mean I think my parents have put their faith in God. I think my sisters have. But the things I remember about growing up and church were very few and far between. I am not sure why. Maybe it was because we moved often with my dad in the Army. Maybe it was because I don't have a good memory. But the fact remains that what and how I have learned about God is from Him. And really shouldn't it be that way? I mean whether you grow up in a home that goes to church or not God calls us to himself and teaches us. He is the Great Teacher.

But I feared raising 3 boys. How do I do it? How do I make them stay on the Way. How do I build strong christian character? How do I let them go? What if they choose wrong? I feared the future for them. Mainly because I did not want them to go down the way I did. I want to help them find the Way and stay on it! But the world is closing in on all four walls. They are so against us. I will loose one of them, the odds are against me. I feared. You know those silly 30 questions that go around that ask you things about yourself? The one that asked what do you fear? Well my answer was always that I fear loosing one of my children. Not to death but to the world.

I spend most mornings getting ready and that is my most quite time so I pray. I was praying recently about 2 friends that have chosen to homeschool. I hadn't spoken to them in a while so they came to my mind. I like to hang scripture on our bathroom mirrors as a way to memorize and the one that hangs now is
Galatians 5:22
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control.
So I was praying that during the day the Spirit would give my 2 friends a home filled with those things. Then it came to me!

I was so worried about the odds that I couldn't keep 3 boys. I have a house with 5 people filled with God's Holy Spirit. 100% always good, always for us Holy Spirit! What odds!!! I forget who is on my side, who has my back. Who has theirs! Then as I am reading tonight for Sunday school tomorrow morning in Romans He reaffirms it for me. What a teacher, one I hope to be to my own children. But I can trust that when I fail He will not.
Romans 8:31
If God is for us, who can be against us?
Father forgive me when I forget and when I have such weak faith. I love you.


Tricia said...

What an awesome post!!! Really, I could feel your emotion as I read what you wrote. I love hearing you open up like that. I think all of us Christian moms can relate and we can definitely learn from what you're learning. Thank you so much for sharing it with us :-)

Angela ~ said...

Thanks Tricia! It means alot coming from you. I always feel vulnerable opening up.

Anonymous said...

What a great post!! It was very encouraging. I have been feeling convicted about how I have been not seeing how BIG God is. I have been asking Him to increase my view of Him and once again I come here and read this. What a mighty God we serve. I think your boys were all very fine gentlemen!! We hope to see you again soon. Have a very Merry Christmas.

Angela ~ said...

Thanks Michelle! We do hope to see you guys again soon. I am so glad my post encouraged you! I am humbled! Merry Christmas!